Today has made me both happy and sad. Happy because I got a lot of compliments today and a boy in my first period (who I don’t talk to much but we have small talk sometimes because he sits across from me) said I looked pretty and many people complimented my outfit and I told 2 of my teachers I didn’t feel like looking like a homeless person when they asked me why I was dressed nicer than usual and that made them laugh which makes me happy. And its the end of the week which also makes me happy. And things are generally going well which makes me happy. And school is almost over for the semester, which is insanely exciting actually. And work made me happy tonight because I got to see and talk with my favorite manager and my other manager complimented me, which is very rare, on doing really well when we were super busy.
But a few things actually make me really sad though too. I have a shot ton of shopping to do for my friends and boyfriends birthdays this week and I only have a few hours tomorrow to do it. The nest two weeks are going to be stressful as fuck for sure. Mostly this upcoming week just because of everything going on.but I don’t know. There’s just some thing that make me sad, still. I don’t know why. Just that lingering feeling of sadness that never really goes away. Just through what’s been going on in my friend group that’s been stressing me out like shit and through people being shitty and jerks, I just can’t really handle too much socialization anymore. I’m getting better at it, but I just feel like i want to have less friends, sometimes. The drama becomes too much. Idk. And I’m just sad. That’s it. No rhyme or reason. Just am. Ok done ranting going to sleep
“Some people think only intellect counts: knowing how to solve problems, knowing how to get by, knowing how to identify an advantage and seize it. But the functions of intellect are insufficient without courage, love, friendship, compassion, and empathy.”—
it’s just so funny how you can just click with some people but not others, like you can meet a new friend who completely gets you in like 2 weeks and yet have a parent or relative who still doesn’t know your simplest likes and dislikes after 20 years. its weird
I fucking hate it when you’re in such a fantastically giddy mood and then you see one simple little thing that makes you think, “oh” and then you just get this empty feeling in your chest and you get nauseous and the world just crumbles and you want to just lay under a blanket and close your eyes and fall asleep and never wake up.
i actually like asshole couples best like the couples that pick on each other so much and call each other names but it’s okay because you know they’re actually totally in love and none of it is meant in a mean way and every insult is punctuated by a sweet comment to remind the other how much they actually adore them and i’m sorry but there isn’t anything cuter ok
one time i was trying to dirty talk with my ex boyfriend and i started saying ‘i’ve been a very bad girl’ and he said ‘why what have you done?’ and i didnt know what to say next so i just said ‘i’ve burnt down a house’
do you ever get in one of those moods where you’re like feeling okay but you’re really sad at the same time and you just want to talk to someone and make them hug you but you feel annoying so you kind of just sit there being really sad
I wish people could just say how they feel like ‘hey I really don’t like when you do that to me’ or ‘hey I’m in love with you’ or ‘hi I really miss you and i think about you all the time’ without sounding desperate why can’t everyone be painfully honest and just save people the trouble
in elementary school i hit this kid cause he said i cant punch and i broke his nose and then my stepdad picked me up and the office was like “you have to say sorry” but then the kid was like “but she proved me wrong, she doesn’t have to say sorry” ladies and gentlemen my best friend of many many years